Its in the darkness..!

Realized... :)

Its in the darkness,

I realized, that the light

Is always with me!

Its what my faith taught me,

Its what my life showed me,

its what the science proved to me.

Its in the darkness;

12 past 50 in the morning,

I realized now,

That I have the light in hand.

I just failed to see it at times!

At times;

I used to worry, and

I used to plan my actions

When in case I go blindfolded in the dark.

But I forgot to think that,

I would always have the light in hand.

And I just have to show it to my eyes!

Now I see it;

I'm not ashamed of the ignorance I had,

I'm rather proud of how I dealt with my past.

And I am absolutely sure now

That I would do

Everything I've ever wanted.

I am me, and I've got everything in me

So does everybody.

Thats how the system is,

Thats how the system works.

And we're the system;

I am the system.

And this is how I'm goin to be..

And I'm happy about it :)

I wish....

Another part unfold...

One moment I see the light,
Its the end of the tunnel.
The next I see, its gone..


I keep asking these questions to me,
which even to me seems so senseless.
I guess the day I get answers; The day I would pass away


This side of me; the pessimistic side of me,
pops up when untold things unfold.
Pushes me down into that bottomless abyss again.


When things happen to me, I'm not shaken.
When something reaches the people around me,
Life gets sick when I do nothing about it.


Fighting and surviving, all sounds good,
Until you have to fight for someone to survive.
Its not hard, its painful.


Every move I make is so heavy,
I can't give up; its not my fight.
And I don't know how to deal this.


When others' fate play with you, Life stinks.
And thats when
I wish I were never born


I don't like to be here as me.
So weak and So naive.
I wish I were mad.


If this is how things are goin to be,
I don't expect to see the future.
I wish I didn't exist.


Let the future expect me,
to play with my nerves.
I wish I won't feel it.


But the present I'm in,
pulls me in so hard.
I wish I'm more strong.


I wish things won't go wrong.
I wish I deal these carefully.
I wish I become the old me again.


I wish I work and not just wish...

walk with time...

I realized....

Walking in the woods; its a foggy day.

Teetering and Tottering, I walk along.

As these branches dripping dews.

With my face wet, my thoughts wet.

My vision gloomy; my mind so gloomy.

Walking alone, with none on mind.

As I wipe my face, I wipe my thoughts.

I realized then that there,

I walk, I move not to pass time.

I walk to keep up with time.

I move so to move along with time.

I walk and I move not to pass time

I walk, I move,

to let time not to pass away from me.

I walk along in the woods not alone

I walk along with time.

Have you ever been there...?

No one but only you...

With all your pain gone...

And no one near..

Standing all alone...

With nothing to think of.

With nothing to worry about.

When you stand in that place

That place you would never reveal...

That place you would never take anybody to.

No matter how close they are.

That place where you live with your dreams;

With peace,

With your soul.

That place which calms you down without any effort.

Which makes you feel that happiness for no reason.

That place when you fantasize;

Which you never want to leave.

That same place ,

Which doesn't exist physically...

That very place,

Which makes you blab like this.

Have you been to that place?

That heaven of a haven

Have you been there?

I'm just nobody...

Since the day....

Nothing has changed !

Since the day you broke up,

Nothing has changed.

I talk, I walk

I eat, I work

Its all the same

Nothing has changed.

Since the day you took your love back,

Nothing has changed.

I see you in my dreams,

I wonder what you're doing,

Its all the same,

but

Nothing has changed.

I just lost my identity,

Since the day I lost you

I'm just nobody.

but

Nothing has changed.

I was searching for me in you then,

now

I'm searching for me myself everywhere .

I still hope

that

I'll get what I'm searching,

as you always wanted me to.

I just hope

I'll find myself at last,

at least in the grave.

Yeah

Nothing has changed

since the day everything turned upside down....

Honestly

Nothing has changed .

Its all like that day

I knew

life will never be the same...

but

I thought

that

Something might happen

to pull me back to the ground.

but

Nothing happened

I still hope

Something would change,

Someday,

and

I'll wait for it to happen

as you always wanted me to...

I'll wait ....

Until I get you back..

I'll wait for it.

Counting all the seconds of the nights....

Watching all the doors of my life....

Keeping all of these on my mind...

I'll wait for it

Until then

Nothing will change.