01 June 2009

Goodbye...


its just painful to say...

I knew

that

I'm not the right one for you.

I knew

that

I don't deserve you.

but

I also knew

that

I would do whatever you want me to,

that

I would never question you,

that

I would change anything you want me to.

but now

You want to breakup .

You want me to walk away and never come back.

You want me to never see you again.

I know this moment

that

I would not ask you for a reason.

I know this moment,

I would do as you told me to.

Like all the time,

I would not blame you for anything.

but

I also know,

I would spend the rest of my life thinking...

Thinking what went wrong,

Thinking what did I do,

Thinking what could I have done,

Thinking why did not I ask you why?.

Regretting the respect I had on you.

Until the last moment of my last day.

But

I also know

that

no matter what happens,

I would never hate you,

I will Love you forever,

I will never say these straight to your face.

and

I will never come back.

what will become history in your life

will be the mystery of my life

and

I will work on to find the answer forever

even though

I know

that

I would never get one.

But

for now

hope you understand

hope you understand.

When I say Goodbye

I mean all of these.

you want me to say Goodbye to you

I will.

But

I hope you understand

that

that's the last thing I would want to do.

that

I mean so much when I say that.

that

its the worst ever torture I could ever endure.

that

I will regret it even when in my grave.

Hope you understand

just hope...

Bye..

Goodbye...

6 comments:

Arshat said...
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Sha said...

Hi machi this is the best I ever read in your blog.

Arshat said...

Thank you... :)

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Arshat said...

Thank you Emilie I'll definitely check it out and I'll vote for you... :)